Monday, September 25, 2006
I just realized that maybe love doesn't have a place for me in the world.
Why wait for someone when she doesn't even like you? It's a matter of time the truth will be revealed. I really don't understand. Call me young, call me immature, but I can just tell you that "Love" is just a word, a piece of shit.
I want "love" badly. Why? I want to be loved, cared by a person. Call me naive, but it's true. Maybe my meaning is wrong, a girlfriend is for you to snog instead of being someone you can relate to.
And I just realized that MOST of the girls in NUSHS are too conservative. It's hard to get fresh with them. *Says it cautiously... >.< Maybe I should give them and myself a second chance, who knows, I might really find one.
Or maybe I should just get someone out of this world. Someone not in this bloody school. How does love even start? I'm so puzzled... Does love always work out in the end? It's just a past-time for some people!
I don't feel loved, AT ALL. Not even by a single soul in this bloody damn world. No one has cared for me, consoled me and even show a single concern for me. I THANK YOU, you guys out there. You made me realized how pointless is in everything that I do.
I'm still misled by the darkness, waiting for someone to be the light and free me from the loneliness -- the one thing that is undefeatable. Gaara is so lucky, I'm not. I only share 1 thing in common with Naruto and Gaara, go figure.
Just stop wasting my time, stop shedding crocodile tears, isn't there a single true being out there?
